Friends

People change, and I've officially decided that teenagers are the most bi-polar humans on the planet Earth. Yes, I'll admit I have my moments, but come on! Some people are just really insecure and it grosses me out. Why can't you just be loving, and accepting of people as they are? My best friend and I are like not even friends anymore because we're both changing. It's also been hard because all she does is spend time with her boyfriend, and I know for a fact that THAT has changed her. I don't hate her, but I just feel somewhat replaced. I never wanted that to happen. To be replaced by a boy. That's the most painful thing to go through as a friend.


What's really ironic, is that having a best friend is almost like your married. You sometimes have fights, but you get along really well most of the time. Except this relationship I have is an "about to get divorced" kind of friendship. It hurts, it really does. And I can honestly say that there's not a day I don't think about it. It's hard to let go, and just drift away when you want something to get better or work out in the end. So long and farewell, you'll be forever in my heart. Almost like sisters? I don't know, you tell me.

Well I Mean Every Word I Say!

As the past week has dragged on, with me being sick, I've realized how much I'm going to miss choir tour. Through the ups and the few downs of tour I've overcome so many personal things. I realized who my real friends are, and what friends I plan on keeping. I also learned to show my love and faith in our Savior, Jesus Christ, to people who are not followers of any sort of religion. I'm so happy with the growth I have had in the past year or so. Everything is refreshing and everything is relaxing.

Although I have a lot of work to do from now until June, I've decided that I need to manage my stress in a better way. I over analyze EVERYTHING and that really is a burden, yet in some instances it can be a positive trait of mine. As long as I keep my head optimistic direction, I'll be on my way to what I want to achieve. I love life, and every thing about it.